These past few months have been one long anticipation buildup! In both my personal and professional lives, things have been foreseen which took time to happen. Like, I knew it would happen, was waiting for it to happen, and then eventually after a long wait it did. I knew I’d most likely be laid off at work, our team prepped for it, and then it happened…that kind of thing. I won’t name all the instances, but I wish each one was positive. This isn’t a bad thing, though, it just means that life is moving forward the way it should, just slowly… ever so slowly.

One GOOD build is that I’ve finally had my application for the transplant go through…finally, and now I’m getting all of my cancer screening done before they start the full examination. It’s still going to take months, though, before any progress is made. In a way it’s good that I’m currently unemployed as I’m more available to schedule all of these appointments. On the other hand, it causes a huge challenge when it comes to the job hunt. I have a weird time crunch to work with. Even though I have COBRA to continue my health insurance, it’s very expensive, and I really need to find a job with good insurance so that I can get the surgery paid for without wiping my savings clean! I also have to find something sooner rather than later so that I can establish myself in my new position while I still have the energy to physically do so! That’s the hard part. I don’t know when the surgery will happen, or and when or if my health will start to decline to the point that I can’t physically do my job! I need to have time to prove myself before I disappear for a few months to heal. At the same time, I can’t exactly expose that I’m about to have this surgery b/c who wants to hire someone that is about to go on leave for an extended time? Ugh. All I can do is just push forward as if nothing unusual is happening and hope I find a new job “home” that will hopefully be patient with me as I get this taken care of. What timing, huh?

Another good step is that they are presenting me to the committee to see if I get approved for the surgery and whether or not I get just a kidney or if I can move forward with kidney/pancreas. I am anxiously waiting results from that meeting! Otherwise, while I am starting to move forward with the whole health process, it still feels painstakingly slow. I’m usually the most patient person you’ll meet, however this has me starting to pull my hair out! (Not literally… I love my hair… want to keep it around as long as I can. hee).

For those of you who have been asking about donating and how to get tested, here is the link you need to go to. It’ll start with a survey and if you “pass” the survey, it’ll give you directions for next steps.

Link to donate (if the link above wasn’t working) – LivingDonorFortWorth.org

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Things I’m thankful for today:

1.Patience.

2.  Distractions. I’m heading to Philly this weekend for a good change of scenery. It’ll be my first trip since COVID started! I’m really looking forward to some fun and relaxation with my best friend Steve!

3.  Family. A cousin of mine passed recently and while our extended family hasn’t gotten together in a while, it was a touching reminder that we can all still come together in a time of need. RIP Tanya! You were an amazing woman and you were loved!